JuSt a giRL

:: I AM ::

…am a daughter, a sister, a grand-daughter, a niece, a cousin, a friend. I am a partner, a student, a young girl and a grown woman, I am confident & scared, terrified and excited. I am loving and caring. And thoughtful and hopeful. I am sick and tired. I am shy and friendly, careful and careless. I am broken and whole. I am misunderstood, misguided and mislead. I am hard working and determined. But a little scared on the inside. I wish on the stars and dream my dreams. I pray to god and cry my tears. I smile on the outside while I’m dying in the inside. I listen to others who wont listen to me. I walk on the eggshells and I walk on fire. I believe in passion but not true love. I love you and I push you away. I want you but not so close. I am everything and nothing at once. And all I want is for you to LOVE ME!

Entries

Thursday, August 30, 2007

here we go again.... with no solutions to the matter, u alive again as a person in my life. After saying so much things that hurts me, blaming me for doing nothing u came back n talk to me abt other things n act nice! like wth? are u pretending or wat? wat are u trying to do actually? one day you can get angry over some unrelevant matters, u ignored me for couple of days, then the next day u came up and be nice to me.... this sucks! big time... i mean thanks for the great effort u made to end the arguments but is this the way of urs? im not interested. stop playing arnd the bush. im sick n tired of all this bullshits! and guess wat. when u came up to me last nite n being nice n all, i left with not choice, i pretend to be nice back to you. but the real fact, im not over this yet. Because of you being childish, i have to act like dis!

L o V i N g Y o U
3:27 PM

Wednesday, August 29, 2007

i deliberated with the real meaning of love. certain things that freak me most is when things get in a wrong way. arguments, fights, screaming, shoutings....argh! that is went life get suckier.

wat is it like to live for the rest of my life with misery? the past was my scar, the future awaits and i am afraid. has the time arrived for me to sit and think the best for myself? i cant decide. the feeling of insecured, unproctected was empty. happiness was gone long ago. sacrifices was unappreciated. left alone to deal with everything. was blame for doing nothing. the difficult situation of mine! ITS UNDESCRIBABLE ~meow~

L o V i N g Y o U
2:18 PM

never done blog.. im trying! coz i think its interesting and cool. haha! well big applause for the new comer! hurray.... woohooo....

more things to come baby! this is just the begining....... rock on!

L o V i N g Y o U
11:17 AM

Days past n here im thinking of the life im bringing. the future im holding. the past ive been through. its hard but its just life. was wondering, will i be able to carry the load of life. but as it goes life have to go on. . the life of "imperfection".

L o V i N g Y o U
11:13 AM